Good early morning,*I need special prayers, I tend to backside a lot, I've known Pastor...

Good early morning,*I need special prayers, I tend to backside a lot, I've known Pastor Benny Hinn since childhood and my parents do too, they don't know I'm contacting though. I tend to go back to my wrongs, I'll say it's retrogression. I'm tired and painted by it, I sing well and want to improve on my worship ministry too, but I keep thinking about all I've done most I can't remember because this all started let me say lian abuse when I was younger due to my ignorance although I've forgotten most of my childhood till fourteen years of age.*I've spoken too much please pray for me to do well in keeping the faith. I really want to be a sincere child of God.**Also my family is going through hard times, serious financial crisis and my church too please pray for us all.**I'm scared and tensed about sending this, if I'm doing a mistake, I'll really regret it but, I'm convincing myself that I'm not.**I want this to be handled very secretly, I don't do well with making issues public :) , I really want this to be a secret.*I look forward to hearing from you soon, thank you and God bless you.